Chapter 4: Letrozole Day 2

I'm a little flabbergasted that I've already taken the Letrozole/Femara for two days now... like I only have 3 more of those tiny little pills left? That's it? It seems so anticlimactic now compared to when I was mentally preparing myself to start the meds.

I think I'm doing pretty well on the Letrozole, so far at least. My stomach felt like it was on fire last night but I had super spicy food for dinner so that could have been the cause. My mouth was on fire so much so that I put the remaining half of my dinner in the refrigerator for my husband to finish today. Seeing as I am a powerhouse when it comes to my spice tolerance, the burning sensation I was feeling was totally throwing me for a loop post dinner last night. I've learned my lesson though... I stuck to whole foods, while appetizing on the taste buds, not even close to spicy. While I may miss the spice, my stomach seems to appreciate me a lot more today.

My doctor has not said anything to me about changing my diet yet, nor do I think she will. She had mentioned back in October that I should limit my caffeine intake. But seeing as I went off of caffeine for almost 29 days of Ramadan, I don't see why I can't skip out on caffeine for some time longer. No caffeine will be worth the wait when this works. I do however miss the warmth that comes with those drinks seeing as I'm a hot drinks > cold drinks kinda gal so will need to figure out how to remedy that situation. I'm thinking of going back to the milk + turmeric + honey mixture aka golden milk but I'm not sure I can handle turmeric every single day. Will have to find some options.

Beyond that. nothing super exciting to report. I'm only in school teaching for 8 more school days, which is sad, because I would have never thought that I would not get to close out school with my group of kiddos. But what's more sad is that my school just announced that we are going full Distance Learning come Fall 2020 until at least Dec 2020, which is when they will reassess the situation. But their contingent plan is to remain online for the entire 2020 - 2021 academic year. That makes me sad.

As I talked it over with my husband though, we figured it may be good timing for us. My plan has always been to stay home with the babies when we're blessed to have them. So if and when treatment works insha'Allah, I could potentially stay on working for the year, be able to take my maternity leave, and then still be able to return, all while working from the comfort of my home. No worries about scheduling conflicts and wandering eyes wondering where I'm always off to or why I'm running late in the mornings. That may be the best option for us. Allahu 'Alam. I wasn't prepared for it. But after receiving that email, I know I'm feeling better about it. So that has got to mean something, right?

Tomorrow, I call CVS Caremark to schedule out the delivery for the remaining meds which means I will be back here with an update then so we can figure out what's going to happen next, insha'Allah. I also need to start watching videos on how to do these subcutaneous shots. There is no way my husband or I are ready to tackle those just yet.