Chapter 13: Post IUI Updates

We are at the end of day four.

This has been a S T R U G G L E.

Comparatively, many people have it way worse, I know. But looking only at myself and my usual day-to-day activities and things that I get up... let me tell you, I have been getting up to nothing. Nada.

Okay, so side effects/symptom spotting whatever you want to call it:

• So so much bloating. I have never before been bloated. If I have, it was for such a short span of time that I do not recall it. But now, since Sunday, just constant bloating. The first two days, I wasn't even in any mood to eat because it just felt so full. I didn't know if it was pressure or ajeeb cramps or what was going on. Eventually was able to place a name on it, and man, it just does not go away.

• You will be the most tired and sleepy and lethargic and out of energy you have ever been if you're on these progesterone suppositories like I am. I hope to God they don't affect you like they affect me. I've been waking up around 9 AM. Suppositories at 11 AM. I've been falling asleep anywhere from 5 PM - 6 PM till at least 10 PM. Taking my suppositories at 11 PM, and going right back to sleep. Today is the first day since the IUI that I have not taken a nap and I am out here feeling it. Lord help me.

• A couple people told me, and I read tons online, that when taking those suppositories, do not forget to wear panty liners. Everyone was correct. Don't skip those, y'all. It's not terrible; some days it's worse than others. But rather just be in the clear and not have to worry about what's going on over there. So just wear it and forget it.

I want to cry because we're only on day 4 today. 11 more days until the blood test. I want to test early at home either 12 or 13 days post IUI (so that Sat/Sun before the appointment on Monday) but I know that's probably not a good idea. I mean, if I'm thinking about it already, then I'm going to want to do it even more come next weekend; I just know it. The trigger shot takes at least 12dpiui to exit the body so it should be okay to do by then. But I just don't want to be let down. Or it could be good news. Who knows. Do I want to know? I don't know. Send help. I don't want to think about. Maybe I should just go to bed. Ugh.

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My husband and I did book a one week trip for the first week of August after dinner today. We haven't been on a plane for a vacation since our honeymoon, so we figured it was high time to take a break. We're hoping things with COVID have settled by then and that it's safer to travel. I'm looking forward to that, but being cautiously optimistic. Who knows what's the climate will look like in August and whether or not we'll be able to go.

In need of prayers, good wishes, happy thoughts, and as much baby dust as you can spare. Please and thanks.